ciggarettes.&.time.

i never thought that loving could be hurtful so... .. if loving someone else is gonna hurt me so..then why do i believe that..falling one more time is gonna be for show or will it be something more?.. i wonder if there's someone else to end the show cause i've been searching for what seems like a very long time...but deep inside this mind i just can't fight the time it's running very low and i'm racing it to find a love that's likewise. in my mind there's nothing deeper than the feeling that you get from loving someone more than you love the sex. im wondering if the chance is long and gone, and if i had it before.. or is it still on it's way..or maybe on delay? i love with a different point of view. i want something major in comparison to will and jada or something even greater... my haters are opposed to see ya girl sitting pretty with a woman rahter than a "bitch" or something a tad different from the energy ive expensed.. lookin for love like something that fits tighter than a glove.. but what happens when the gloves are too small? what happens when it feels that you've given it your all? so fall after fall you find it hard to face them all. all the dreams and the riches of attempting to give it your all? all i want is a chance to feel something different than the norm. no discrepancies with who im wit and where i'm going an individual that knows me from the shades of my soul not the blank stares and the screams that "they don't care" or the pains that i feel when i know i won't be there. from the skies im a god like many mouths that say amen. as progress and the right the many wrongs i have amended, i hope i havn't open the door to pandora or the windows of her many faces... i know that love has been found in many places.